I'm not good at blogging now that I don't feel like purging all of my emotions on the Internet in a blog posty type format. I really don't have much to say that is not very, very personal in nature, I think because I've had to internalize so much as of late because of how few outlets I have to talk to about anything. And I'm not exactly in the best place right now. I'm probably the loneliest I've ever been, and all of my friends, with no exceptions, live far away. I have all sorts of different therapies and appointments to go to and those are literally my only activities. I'm not exactly happy, with myself or with anything, and most things are a struggle. I sort of placed this overly-optimistic view on us moving to Indianapolis, thinking that would suddenly make everything better, and although it's definitely improved several things, nothing is magically good once again. There are a lot of voids in my life right now that I'm not really capable of filling. It's troublesome and hard and really depressing sometimes, and I spend most of my time distracting myself from it.
I'm on tumblr almost always. It's much more casual. I feel better there. And twitter, of course. And in the midst of that, I've spent my time rewatching Series 2 of Doctor Who, trying to write, starting to watch Parks and Recreation, and not doing that much else. I'll admit my life is kind of pathetic at this point, but I'm literally just trying to get through each day with as little pain and loneliness and sadness as possible. And that's not all that exciting, unfortunately.
I'm not sure when or if I will continue posting this month, but we'll see.
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